Matthew Collings' father
British art critic and broadcaster Matthew Collings has written about his father who underwent a leucotomy and committed suicide.
In an article in the Independent Newspaper, "Sculpted time", (3 April 2006, page 39) Collings writes:
In an article in the Independent Newspaper, "Sculpted time", (3 April 2006, page 39) Collings writes:
"Among his crowd in Chelsea he was seen as a romantic figure, good-looking like a film star, moody, fascinated by art. He fulfilled a stereotype. It was partly the culture of the time, which was literary existentialism inherited from Paris. Partly it came from what was going on is society generally: the aftermath of the Second World War, all the tragedy, death, bravery, etc. I suppose it was a way of positively mythologizing a horror to which there really couldn't be any answer. In any case, my father was a romantic bohemian type but he was also ill - he'd had an unsuccessful brain operation and he'd received a head injury in the war. Plus, unknown to anyone, a part of his brain that hadn't been attended to during his operation was being attacked. After his death an autopsy revealed a tumour. It could have been removed by surgery if it had ever been diagnosed while he was alive. It may have been the cause of his symptoms.After a broken engagement with the sculptor Elisabeth Frink who made a portrait bust of him, Arthur met and married Matthew's mother, a nurse. Collings continues:
The brain operation was a leucotomy, performed immediately after the war. He came back depressed from a POW camp. It was in East Germany - the Russian army liberated him. I think he signed up for the RAF partly because he had some emotional disturbance in his life. Perhaps he was already suicidal. He had an alcoholic father and a domineering mother - the father walked out and never returned. When war broke out Arthur was in a reserved occupation, working as a draughtsman for the Admiralty. However, he joined the Pathfinders as a navigator. The Pathfinders was known to be a particularly dangerous section of the RAF. They flew ahead of bombers laying down flares to light the target. He was shot down, his parachute failed to open correctly and his head was injured.
He was in the camp for two years. He suffered a breakdown. He thought he was Jesus. He gave away his blankets. In Britain a psychiatrist examined him - he was free now so why wouldn't he pull himself together? He was accused a malingering. He punched a psychiatrist in the face. Later the leucotomy was done...
Arthur's depression didn't clear up. He had girlfriends, he socialised and he was good company, interested in ideas and culture and history, and in psychology and what made everything tick. But he had dark moods, terrible headaches, he couldn't concentrate, he couldn't work with any ambition or intensity. His inability to keep an even keel gradually caused him to be self-pitying and cruel. He caused scenes. He disappeared for days on drink binges...."
"When my father died my mother was seven months pregnant. He just went out one day and never returned. The the police called and said he was dead on one of the Channel Islands. He'd been secretly saving up the sleeping pills my mother served him each night, one by one, in a Swan Vesta matchbox. He took them all..."
